All me

it is all about me this time..
what i want, where i want to go, what i want to do and who i want to see there.
selfish? maybe.
i've started to learn that sometimes in life you need to be selfish to get where you want. to not get walked all over, even if that means hurting someone unintentionally...or intentionally along the way. i need to do it for myself. i want to be bold, brassy, adventurous, daring, and unsuppressed. yes! all of them! i want to change me into someone i'm proud to be. i've finally found one amazing someone who seems to just bring it out in me, so its become just that much easier of a goal.
i want to shoot for the starts and not get shot down. or at least i want to shoot for the starts and stop caring about those people trying to shoot me down along the way. i don't give myself extremely ridiculous expectations, so that one time i try for something outrageous sounding...just let me for once. i'm sure it will be an amazing journey. maybe i will get some bumps and bruises along the way but who cares? i don't. i want whats best for me; i have my own goals, expectations and pressures on myself. i don't need yours added. maybe i can be wacky and crazy, but....if you know me, that's why you love me :)

i'm not here to whine like the little girl i am. i'm here to grow. to change. to be different.
so maybe i don't capitalize any of the i's in this blog, or capitalize any of the letters at beginning of sentences. i don't do it, because i just plain can. to do what you want, when you want to. well that to me is being different. you're the plaid sheep.

in the future of this blog i will take you through the life of me, my brilliant job as a barista (and yes that means all of those amazing stories of lovely customers who like to try to make my day miserable), my lovely someone who you will i'm sure hear much more about soon, and our future plans, travels and adventures that will be starting very, very soon. be excited.

and please. its pronounces barista, with the i sounding as an e, not bariiiista. it drives me nuts.